Sunday off with your best friends is really a day well spent. We explored some beautiful places and I was amazed again that we are really having these places here in Estonia. First we went to Viru Bog and we had a nice 7 km walk there. Then we drove to Jägala Waterfall and enjoyed this place. Even though I have been to both of these places before, it was still nice to be back and enjoy the beautiful nature, nice weather and a great company. We ended our day in Viitna, where we had these huge burgers and ate them all, because we were so hungry after this roadtrip. Anyways it was a great day and I definitely wanna go on those roadtrips again before I`ll leave for 2 months.
Monday, May 22, 2017
It`s been a while since I`ve talked about my beauty favourites! In all honestly, my favourite products don`t often change, but sometimes I lik to switch things up and give new items a try.
Avon Gold Lip Gloss - It`s so nice and sweet on lips. I love the neutral colour and I use it to moisturise my lips. The texture of the lipgloss is smooth and hydrating. Also, it`s so easy to apply and it feels really comfortable to wear.
Maybelline Master Ink Liquid Eyeliner Matte - I have been looking for the perfect liquid eyeliner for years, and fortunately I have found it . I love that it`s matte black and long lasting. It`s so easy to put on. The bruch is thick enough to make flicks super easy. This product is fantastic. I have been experimenting with so many eyeliners but I found nothing as good as this one.
Maybelline Dream Pure BB Cream - If you have been reading my blog for a long time, then you should know how much I love this BB cream. I mean, it really is the best. It gives me an amazing fresh look. As I have oily skin and with this product my skin feels nice and it makes my skin less sticky.
Lumene Wild Rose Lipliner - Lately I have been really into lipliners. I haven`t used them much in the past, but one day I started to experiment more with make up and from then it`s the must-have in my make-up bag. I love this Lumene lipliner, because it feels so nice on my lips and the colous is just perfect for me. The texture is so creamy that I can use it both as a liner, but also as a full lip colour.
Maybelline Matte Maker Mattifying Powder - It`s so smooth, long lasting and applies really good. It has a soft texture that glades on really great and it stays on for many hours.
Maybelline Master Contour V-Shape Duo Stick - When I first saw this product in store and thought that wow, I need to get this to myself, it looks awesome. And when I bought it, I fell in love with it. I have nothing bad to say about this stick. It blends well, it`s really easy to apply and take-off and it`s long lasting. I`m definitely going to buy this one again and again. Absolutly love it.
Maybelline One by One Volum Express Mascara - I have been using this one for years and I absolutely love it. The formula is so nice and it seperates my lashes and doesen`t flake on me.
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Saturday, May 13, 2017
I was away for some time and I even thought that maybe I should stop blogging, but then I understood that maybe I shouldn`t, because I really enjoy doing it. It`s like my own little world where I can express myself and share my life with you. This particular post is going to be a long one and I thought a lot if I should write about this on my blog or not. It is a very personal topic, but maybe it`s also time for you to get to know me a little better.
A few moths ago I went through the hardest few months of my life. One night I was about to wake up at 4 am and it felt like a nightmare. Well, actually I hadn`t been sleeping normally for a couple of weeks already, I felt that something was not right, but at the same time I said to myself that I overthink and it`s all ok. My trust was compleately broken from the person I thought would never do that. The person I grew up with, the person I started dating before high school, college, blogging, work etc. And throught that journey of these years I started putting my identity as a "girlfriend".... never just Carina. So, when I lost him I lost myself, because I was just Carina for the first time and I was`t ready for it.
After this I learnt that it`s never good time for a change. I thought I knew who I was but I didn`t and that was scary. I started hiding behind social media, my friends, my colleagues and followers, but inside there was someone screaming who just wanted to be herself and feel free. And I was angry at myself, because I knew I was changing and I started to look at my old photos and I wanted to see that Carina, but I knew that I´m not that Carina anymore. And I was`t used to that. I used to put on this face all the time. It was always about what everyone else thought, it was never how about I felt. There were always so many questions in my head. I mean not when I was with this person, most of the times I was 100% myself, but when there was his family or friends involved, I always questioned myself: Am I good enough? Am I wearing the right clothes? Is my make-up perfect? Aren`t my hair too greasy? It was always about making that impession to be that "normal" girlfriend. But I have never been just the girl next door, but I tried to become her.
Also, I hit that rock bottom. I didn`t wanna wake up. I just wanted to keep escaping from reality and go back to bed. I did`t even want to sleep, I just wanted to lay in my bed and stay there for days. Then I realised that I can`t hide from it, I had to face it. I had to sit on it, and feel depressed, and cry, and be alone, and sleep. And I wasn`t even crying over losing someone in my life. I cried because I was so confused. I admit it, it felt like s**t. But at least I was honest with myself. If I wanted to curse, I cursed. If I wanted to smoke those 2 packs of cigarettes a day, I did that, even though I don`t smoke. If I wanted to dance in the club all night long and drink, I did that too. And if I wanted to dye my hair and wear my piercings again, I did that. And I realised if someone behaves like this, then I should leave. I thought that I have to keep in touch with this person for some reasons, but no. I understood that I`m so much more than some responsibilities.
I stood in front of the mirror and said "Stop being afraid to love yourself". I understood that I can be who I am and who I want to be. It`s all up to me. Today, I look at myself in the mirror and I know that`s who I am, and that`s totally ok. When I started to put myself first, everything started to change. I`m actually comfortable in my own skin for the first time in my life. Change is scary, but I`m growing up, I`m not supposed to stay the same. I`m gonna be better from this, I`m going to be stronger from this and I know that I`m going to be really happy with who I become. Also, I know that this person needed to find happiness and I needed to find happiness. This all had to happen so I could find myself.
at May 13, 2017
Tuesday, April 18, 2017
New hair, new me. Well, whenever something changes in my life I have always found myself dying my har, I don`t even know why, but it has always been like this and this time is no different.
jacket - Vero Moda / shirt - New Yorker / jeans - Levi`s / hat - Terranova / shoes - Nike